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For the last couple of days I am dealing with my paranoic obsessions about deseases.. Moreover if you ask me, these paranoic symptoms of fatal deseases are mostly worth to worry about. Anyways the theme of my this serious essay is not the psychologically observed symptoms nor their objective existence. Instead how instantly we can give up from our aims, change our thoughts about how to behave, or even our plans about the next day. One grows a great consumption desire whereas he was a very passionate idealist about sustainability issues. One becomes a money waster on every single object he desires, whereas he might not have been a materialistic person up to that point in his life.
Excuse me that I am still confused while writing this sentences, I have more questions than answers... What is it that changes us so quickly? Humankind is selfish, we knew that. Even when they are talking about the rainforests, air pollution, or glabal worming, the mankind thinks about their grandchildren, not the fucking pandas that are fading away. Humenkind is so selfish that in every approach towards a better balance in nature, the fake utopias for a better world is covering their mission for a better life for only themselves. The only difference of today's utopias is that people are realizing that they won't have a better life without the world itself, and this realization is not in the minds of half of the population I bet. The conclusion I can get from here is that maybe in the future some will achive to create a more balanced life in nature, including all the species... but since humankind is selfish and stupid and owns a memory shorter than fishes, this balance won't last so long.